Hello,
I would like to tell you a little about my sexuality, at least summarily. So the point is that I don’t feel at all this urge to do certain things with a guy. I read everywhere that there are guys who would do anything to have sex with a friend of theirs and so far I can also agree, but can you tell me what does it mean to have sex with a guy?I see a lot of porn but now I’m immunized and in practice the porno movies does not make me any effect, I have been also with some guy (that is we didn’t have sex but we've come close), but things seemed very stupid and repetitive, a thing of transgression just for transgression. The guys attract me, all right, but I’m not obsessed with something in particular.
I would like to tell you a little about my sexuality, at least summarily. So the point is that I don’t feel at all this urge to do certain things with a guy. I read everywhere that there are guys who would do anything to have sex with a friend of theirs and so far I can also agree, but can you tell me what does it mean to have sex with a guy?I see a lot of porn but now I’m immunized and in practice the porno movies does not make me any effect, I have been also with some guy (that is we didn’t have sex but we've come close), but things seemed very stupid and repetitive, a thing of transgression just for transgression. The guys attract me, all right, but I’m not obsessed with something in particular.
For example, sometimes I like the beginning of a porn, and especially if the guys are beautiful, then what they do seems to me really stupid, false. If things were to go ahead with a guy as I see in some porn it would be just stupid. Then about such things I have spoken with friends who are also gay but they do not see it as I do but they find themselves in the porn movies.If I have to think about something that really affects me, I would also like to play with my boyfriend, I would not only a sexual atmosphere, we would get along well not just in terms of sex and nothing else, for example, once with a guy I liked we went to the sea, that is, in practice we were alone in the cabin all day naked, then we also masturbated, he claimed to be straight with me and I did not tell him anything, but it was nice, no embarrassment at all, I was there with him as if he was not there, but he was there.I do not know how to say but it was nice that my friend had no problems with me being naked and even masturbating, we also said so many stupid things, we were laughing a lot of time. I do not know if this is sex, but it was nice, I want something like that. I almost did not even care if he's gay or straight, the guy said he was straight but I was fine.
I have met also guys picked up in a dating site in practice only for sex but we did nothing, when we met they were really rough guys and were obsessed with sex, I sent them immediately to be fu ..ed, and they wanted to have sex also without a condom! When I dream something sexual my model is what we did in the cabin of the beach, so I feel at ease.
My friends tell me I'm too young (16) and I have to grow to learn to understand certain things but I think I will not change at all. Then there is a thing that excites me very much, when I go to the beach with some school mates who are not gay, there are showers without divisions, in practice we take a shower together, that to me is a beautiful thing and involves me very much, I make a huge effort to avoid an erection but I control, but then such situations enter my brain deeply and I masturbate about a lot of times, not, however, thinking of doing stuff with those guys but just to be with them in the locker room all naked, it's beautiful and I like it a lot.
Do you think I still have to grow in order to fantasize about things other people think? But such things don’t excite me at all. For me the best is being naked together and playing a little, I always do the fool in the showers, but they let me do because they think I’m straight and then between straight guys we can feel free and I can take advantage but I play just like a fool but it is not something sexual, it’s just that I play because I'm good.
A fantasy that I have in mind is to go to a nudist beach, just to see naked guys without the need to necessarily have sex, I’d like to see them naked because a naked guy is nice to see even if he is straight. I do not know if in the nudist beaches there are only gay guys but I don’t think so and then for me, just to see and nothing else, gay or straight it’s all the same. I never went to the nudist beach because I'm a little afraid, even though I look older than my age. Project, but are all this things really gay or are just my things that maybe have nothing gay? But I feel really gay!
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In fact, the collective nudity is a topic which is discussed very little but that is very important and also a source of anxiety for a lot of gay guys. In general, the issue is underestimated because the problem of collective nudity is a problem typically gay. In Italy the showers and changing rooms are divided by gender, this is because, assuming that the entire population is straight, separating the rooms by sex, it’s possible to avoid to create forms of sexual involvement in the locker rooms.
The premise that everyone is heterosexual, however, is wrong and, while for hetero guys locker rooms and showers remain environments broadly neutral in terms of sexual involvement, for gay guys, the same environments are particularly exciting and also sometimes distressing, because it is true that you can see your mates naked but it is equally true that you too have to be naked and a gay guy when he is naked with other naked guys can have erection problems with a remarkable embarrassment.
Many gay guys do sports activities in a systematic way and are now so accustomed to the environment of the locker rooms and showers that staying there does not create them any problem nor any sexual arousal at all. It all depends on education and acquired habits. The habit takes away the sexual halo from the situations of collective nakedness. It can remain an embarrassment due to the possible sense of inferiority that you can fell, both for the size of your penis or for the general fitness level, but the habit minimizes also these things.
It is obvious that those who attend sporting environments of young people will find a lot of really beautiful guys, but the first rule is to accept what you really are. It is obvious that it is very different to be 20 years old, or to be 40 or 60, it’s very different to be athletic and toned or to have a prominent belly. So each of us is just what he really is. The same holds true for the nudist beaches. In Italy, the term nudist evokes scenes of porn movies, but, you understand well, in many countries, particularly in Northern Europe nudity is practiced at the household level and nobody is upset because there is a different culture of nudity.
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